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London let me down tonight. I said it wouldn't happen again and it didn't. Partly because Rick was there.. partly because of Erica and Alex. And partly because Patrick called me a fucking dyke bitch and we were all so pissed at him. And partly because I sung to you.. 'you had your chance, you blew it'. I didn't mean it. With me, it's never blown. Then on the way home you texted me saying 'what's with us?' And I asked what you meant but you didn't reply. But if I was to try and answer.. this is all I can say. I want you, but I'm trying really hard not to. That is all. I listened to Kelly Clarkson all the way home, and I learnt some thing, I was thinking a lot. Most importantly, my life would suck without you. I mean, we're the same. I even asked you the make or break question tonight.. if you could have one of Girls Aloud, who would it be. And you said Kimberley. You said the right answer. So it's make, not break. And even though we weren't holding hands on the way back to the bus stop this time, at least we were still singing Jessie J. It's okay. Because we can be friends. Just friends, no ten. Not like Soph. Just friends. Just really good friends. Because I need you. As just that. Yeah.