Here is an extract from my miniblogs from this time last year. Hope you enjoy the little incite into my life as it was exactly a year ago.
15th December 2009
'I just want to curl up into a ball and hide and come out when everything is less complicated and I don't have so much going on that it's hurting me in so many ways. I have so much to do and it feels like I'm not going to complete anything.. And they're all so important. I was just getting myself back on track, and then the accident happened and I've just been focusing on staying alive and keeping everyone's spirits up, keeping everyone together. But now I can't stop crying, I'm breaking down, nothings going right. I have so little time, and so many things to do, and the workload is so much that I don't even know where to start. It's so daunting. I can feel myself slipping back into that horrible place I tried so hard to leave behind. And it's not good. I want to run away, or backtrack, before everything. I need to start it all over, save some lives, make things better. It'd be a whole different world for me. I crave it so badly. I can't stay here trying to do this, I need a shell, I want to be a turtle. '
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