Sky blue pink

Maybe the reason I'm feeling so down at the moment is because my plans have been changed so much this week. I blogged earlier in the week about plans, and how much I use them to control my life. And this week everything has gone straight out of the window. I'm not going to the cinema today, which is a change of my plans... but to be honest I'm grateful to have a night in with the television for company ahead of me. My plans have been messed up so much this week that I just want to crawl into bed and sleep for...ever? For a long time at least. Until the kitchen is fixed and the stench has gone and I can pretend that nothing ever happened. Or at least attempt that. It's just the sort of thing that you think will never happen to you. I'm exhausted but I haven't really done anything strenuous. Mental exhaustion perhaps. It's odd how much easier I find it to write when I'm feeling low. The words just flow better. I'd like to be lost in my own little world right now but instead I'm stuck in this one feeling lost. I don't know if I'm hungry, or if I'm thirsty, or if I'm anything. Not knowing seems to be a recurring factor in my life at the moment. I want to be in a magical land. A land where I can control what happens, sort of like a dream, but easier. I want to be in a world where the sky is sky blue pink all day and all night and there is no such thing as a problem. Take me there?