Pentatonix

This is such an eargasm.

Results

Tomorrow is the big day, judgement day, results day. And I don't really know what I'm going to do if this goes wrong. I've got the ex checking in on me constantly to make sure I'm surviving. And I don't know if I am surviving because I haven't been left alone long enough for me to know. So if tomorrow goes wrong, I just don't know.

Attributed

So it's been a few days. I'm not really sure what to do without you. I really figured that it would always be us. I don't know why, I guess I was lured into your trap. Venus fly trap and I'm the flightless fly. You said to let you know if there's anything you can do, if there's anything I need. I don't know what I need, I don't know how to be without you. The last four years of my life have centered around you. You're the love of my life. The reason for my existence. So without you, do I just stop existing?

Luckily next week brings a barrage of music. Sanity. I need to fall into the abyss and be swallowed up by melody.

I don't know where I'm going with this but it's too fresh to know where I stand. There are songs I long to listen to but I can't. Grey's episodes I feel I should watch but I can't. When things end, you are immediately presented with a chain of memories you suddenly feel the need to block out. It's because for the first time, they hurt now. Simplicity was lost in the break up. And I can't even walk away, rip off the band aid, no anesthesia. I need to know that you're going to be okay. And I probably won't be fine until I don't care if she's fine. (Greys reference) Oh let's face it, my life is just one big Grey's reference. I play this game with people I know who hate Greys. I see how long a quote I can factor in to a conversation and get away with it. This week's winning quote was as follows, recited to a crying Sophie. I was crying too. And it was soon to say it but in that moment I was out of words, my words had run away, so the only option was to use some of George's. It's lucky I knew the speech word for word.

"STOP SAYING THAT YOU'RE SORRY! You wanna know something? I knew. I knew you didn't feel that way about me, even during, when we were in bed I knew. I knew and I still let it happen, because, um, well, I figured that one night with you was better than never. So, will you just stop saying that you're sorry? 'Cause you didn't know any better, but I did. And . . . I'm sorry."



You say that my words are incredible. Well,  I'm sorry to break it to you, but most of the time they aren't my words at all.

Here We Go Again

Baby, you've got the sort of hands to rip me apart
And baby, you've got the sort of face to start this old heart
But your eyes are warning me this early morning
That my love's too big for you my love

Baby, you've got the sort of laugh that waters me
And makes me grow tall and strong and proud and flattens me
I find you stunning but you are running me down 
My love's too big for you my love

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no
And if I was stronger then I would leave this show
And if I was stronger then I would up and go
But here I am and here we go again

Baby, you've got the sort of eyes that tell me tales
That your sort of mouth just will not say, the truth impales
You don't need me but you won't leave me
My love's too big for you my love

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no
And if I was stronger then I would leave this show
And if I was stronger then I would up and go
But here I am and here we go again

Tell me what to do to take away the you

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no
And if I was stronger then I would leave this show
And if I was stronger then I would up and go
But here I am and here we go again